Making a Difference

I've been a missionary here in Panama for a while, getting up to 3 years now. One of the things I have found to be the most difficult is keeping a clear vision and not allowing distractions to get in the way. For example money can be a huge temptation sometimes. When you live month to month like I do, hoping that you have enough support to come in, and then you get certain job offers that would give you financial security but force you to give up your dream can be difficult.

Not too long ago I was offered a position to become a minister with the Church of Christ. They said that they have seen the fruit produced in the ministry we have been doing here and would like me to work with them. They offered me financial security, something I have never had before. The catch though, is that I don't agree with many of the things they believe. They believe that the supernatural gifts of God, like miracles, signs, and wonders passed away with the apostles. I can't agree with that, and if I were to say I did then I would be denying the many miracles that have happened in my life.

I didn't think it would be so tempting though, it's easy to convince yourself that you won't sell out your beliefs for anything until the money is sitting in front of you. Especially if you are going through a very uncertain time financially.

So, I had to make a choice, stay with the vision I have and stay poor, or sell out and have plenty of money. I decided not to sell out, I refuse to be Esau, selling my birthright for food. It's just not going to happen. It doesn't make the choice any easier though. The Name of Jesus be praised always.